the father of stability
one thing i constantly ask for is peace
cuz i know that from time to time i cant see clearly
it gets harder and harder to see your love for me
gradually
still you open my eyes, teach me humility
teach me how to be free
so im thinking i gotta learn to pursue
to redefine the definition of communion with you
learning to live without lack of proof
some may call it the faith of a fool
sometimes i feel like that fool too
its crazy how the devil keep bringing me down
keeps me forgetting that im already found
or maybe showing me that my safe is not what its cracked up to be
should be sitting beside the throne, but the devil he got me on my knees
making me plea
making me bleed
making me think my soul aint free
nah, man, thats not the definition of me
i feel you speaking into my life, into my soul
speaking and saying you paid my toll
and you are trying to show me your love everyday
trying to show me you love the sinners, the sick, the poor, and the gay
because thats who i am, ive whored myself to the world
you aint a merciless God, you aint gonna hurl
its the strange thing about grace you give to me
its like im in the middle of war and you are offering me peace
i dont really know what to do with it
its like my heart or my feelings dont know how to deal with it
its like i got the answer, but my mind is still looking for conflict
so i say agian that this is the way i gotta pray
its like my brain is spilling cuz i opened it with a blade
and put it on a page
like my heart is on fire and it blaze
truth be told i feel it all the time
the need to reciprocate and open my mind
to release the demons that haunt my body
to be real with myself honestly
its been so long since i have met you here
its like ive stopped in the headlights like a deer
cuz youre forcing me to look into the mirror
i cant run, you are always near
so i stay clear
try to run from there
take the wheel and steer
away from here
then i hit the wall
my brakes stall
i stumble, i fall
and then i hear the call
its saying come back to me
its begging me, its saying please
its on its knees, hear the plea
saying you are only found full in me
you are only found great in thee
Lord help me to remember this daily
help me not to live this life safely
only walking in the truth; its not always the easiest path to take
Lord trust me, sometimes its something i really hate
but its what it takes
to understand what makes you, what makes me, truly great
its the closest we got to divinity until we see you face to face.
